The hour is dark. Your door was open, I flew in. I have a message for you. You are much bigger than I thought, A stark reminder. Memory is imperfect. And don’t forget your childhood, It plays out like a film you stood And watched. How did it end? I can't remember, Let's switch this around. Were you happy or sad? I despise both emotions. But you can be hurt? This took some time Explosions in my head Cascading like some unspoken dread.
I went outside And cried. His imperious look Took me off my stride. What are you doing here? Nothing, I promise. You compromise yourself At every move. This is my night Remove your person Unless you would kill with me? I am not certain You can.
I watched the river closely. While it always followed the same path On its way to meet the sea, You could never say it was the same river You looked at only moments ago. The water had moved on and There was always a random pattern To its surface as it passed by the bank and over the rocks. Nothing repeated, all was change. Each second another event, A constant state of flux. Looking on, I suddenly felt heavy And inert and I told myself I must learn from the river and flow. Thoughts meandered through my head Like cigarette smoke caught in sunlight, Insubstantial and lost to the air. The river was calling. I rose up and began to wade into the water. The current was strong and I felt the power As it carried me off my feet, And so I floated, cradled by its might And I heard a voice saying “come with me, I have something show you”. The voice was not mine, The thoughts were not mine For I had left thinking on the river bank. All things in this world talk, But one must listen carefully as some only whisper. I was not curious about the promised revelation the river had made. I trusted implicitly and replied “so it must be”. Presently the river took me by a dense forest. One tree stood out, some of its roots Exposed by the very action of the flowing river, Undermining its grasp of the world. The wind caused its leaves to flutter And I heard it whisper and I found myself standing before it. It was massive and ancient and I felt humbled. “Get up off your knees, your piety does not cut it with me” The tree said angrily, then added, Quite gently “how can I help you?” “I am looking for something tree” “Well, aren’t we all? Not bad, a legitimate enquiry, But it has dangers”. He fell silent. The wind gathered up and he spoke again. “ The river comes to a fork, It is very important you listen carefully now. One way leads to oblivion, the other, Peace and happiness. The big…
How did you feel? Rejected, neglected? I am not sure, I hurt my back I guess. We are not talking of the physical, Your issues are mental; You think I am insane? No, no, calm down, We don’t make judgements. Then why are we here? You are the one in the straight jacket. I don’t believe what they say about you, I think we could use you. Forget CIA or MI5, We need deep cover And you are the best. Get it off your chest, Your journey is rare Dare I say, unique. Release me. No, you are a dangerous violent man. I never harmed anyone. We looked in your head Now, will you work with us? If I can. I said forget about the woman. But I fell in love. Then fall out! The equation balances, Your chance is overcome By impossible expectations. Maybe that’s the explanation For your serial failure In these situations. Pay no heed, That’s not why you are here; You have heightened Senses, More animal than man. So what am I? You decide, We don’t care, But there is something in you That collides. Like a planet or some shit? Much much bigger, Here's a gun, pull the trigger. I would never do that. I hear you snigger. You can see the rage I am in so don’t tempt me, Don’t exempt the possibility.
I found myself strapped to a gurney. Why am I here? He spurned my question, waved it away. We have taken samples. Samples of what? Everything you’ve got. Did you find anything? Nothing springs to mind. Except, except Your blood type we cannot find. What? What? This is serious, Its mixed with something mysterious. We have never seen the like before. I think you are a hybrid. Maybe that’s why you can't score. This is not about sex. I state it plain and simple kid: You are alien We tolerate you Mike down!
I saw him in a tree. His sinew tail hung down. I looked at him, And he at me. His eyes so black, Teeth dripping with blood. Sorry, I have just eaten. What fare? If you must know A knight over there. How did he die? I don’t really care This is all wrong! Just the song of life, You look for complex answers To simple questions. I can feed on a corpse. Well good for you. No, child stew on this.
I am a rat, treated as vermin No ermine coat here. Speak with the cat He is pleasurable And pleasure seeking. But I tell you this He can kill. Not for any reward, Just coz he can. He walked by, I gave a sigh of relief. You are beautiful He said, I know. Is the arrogance misplaced, Stroke me, see for yourself. That’s wonderful, The fur you have is most enticing, Your eyes, so large and engaging. Did you see my claws? No I said I keep them hidden Unless, of course, you threaten. Why would I do that? He laughed, You would be surprised, Talk to the woman, She can tell you more. I gave the cat one last stroke Said I loved him. He replied, I know. I could not believe the arrogance of the bloke. I went in search for her. She appeared Under mysterious moonlight; Her obvious beauty could stop the heart of any man, Not mine. She wore all white, Defining every contour, Her hair was rich and dark. I just wanted to touch. Steady boy, you expect too much, But I thought You thought wrong! I am not here for your pleasure. The measure of man Is in his soul and kindness to all creatures Until you show me that Keep it in your pants!
I met you in a bar, I think it was Hanks. We went over the road And after several drinks In a club called Stallones We snogged on the stairs. The girl I was with was rightly cross I felt no loss. The taste remained. Instinct took over And over again. It left no stain Love leaves nothing behind. Sorry about that, but love strikes like lightening. Are you frightened by that? It means loss of control. I struggle to deal. Do you have no role? How should I play it? Lets see it unfold The play is not told, But the reveal Will leave you cold.
The stage is set, The lead lady is on. She is pretty and buxom; Ain't heard that word Before. Forget what is said Just watch, watch carefully. The husband impeaches her to love him, She says no chance. A cig butt flicked in his face. Are you in disgrace? Well yes.
Love fell through my hands like desert sands. I looked for guidance, There was none. Then good riddance, Desperate child. The sun came out, Warmed and kissed my face. What is the matter? Would you shatter my illusions of place? That happened years ago. Look at you, Look at you now! I ain't broken, I bow to no man, Yet you are on your knees Think about that.
I sit back and look back At the anger within me. I feel this way Every day, But I spit when I curse. If the verse Doesn’t fit Who gives a shit? Only me. But the rhyme must have chime Like a church bell Spell it out for me. You want a lexicon? We don’t have time.
You are the only confident I trust in this matter. Don’t shatter my dream And splatter it over the floor. The door is open. Do you have any idea What I fear? Surely not My dystopian view May come true Until then I will be guided by you.
I awoke, the tears that I shed in my sleep Crusted my eyes. I brushed them aside. Deep in my room I heard a voice say This is the day! The day? We both know So that’s who you are Correct. Now show some respect I am not ready to go yet. That’s up to you There are ways out of here What must I do? I will say it again That’s up to you If you want to know You must give me something. I have money. Shook his head, that’s just a thing In your world, not mine My body Fuck's sake no There is more value here What? Do you have a soul? I am not sure Give me what you got Then he dissapeared.
The enemies' swords Cut and cut again. The smell of cordite Brought me to my knees. I said please Don’t you remember The words I said? I bled out for you, That is not true, Best put aside, laid to rest. But No! But I said no! Your wounds will heal That’s the deal. We patch you up And you can fight With what you steal. I came out, Blood oozed No doubt of that; And weak from the blows I had taken. I picked up a sword. The word was out, He is in slaying mood, Let's watch. I carved and cut And from where I stood many lay dead. I could smell the death With each breath I took. Don’t look away now What else we can unearth?
You can die in a courtroom; No bloom in your face What can erase The chase you find so important. And so you rant, Like a p*issed up tramp. No lamp lights your way. Oh, I tell a lie Come by and sit with me, Just a moment of your time. Speak loudly, I am a bit deaf. A bit death? Said I. No, they sound similar; I am familiar with your case. I suggest you brace yourself. I have news, none of it good I'm afraid. So I delayed telling you, Why? I hate to be the bearer of sad tidings.
The pattern of your behaviour Plays like a broken record, There is no saviour Just you, You and you alone. Are we in accord? Yes. Good! This really won't do. I could kill you But you will not. I know what's in you And what you don't.
How to begin this? I know, he is not taking the piss, He wants a conclusion To the confusion In his head. Shake hands with me; The cold diffusion Of his grip Stripped me. I saw his face; No trace of emotion. I want no commotion. Believe me there will be some, Come with me And by the way Happy birthday.
Then there is a finality, a time to watch what happens Next. How did this play out? You have no clout Yet you are vexed Because you loved Too much. As a dove Struck by an eagle Seeking nest Forfeits its young; All is prey Don’t stay in one place Lest the chase Confines you. Bust out Unless a coffin Demands you to rest. You can bury me alive, I will come at you Through the soil and dirt. This my attitude I love you X. So how much pain I am in is inconsequential. The rage of the man doth make my pale face wan. Do you not believe him!? Not really, he is a bit of an arse.
Many have been written, I see them all as folly. I lack the prerequisite to dolly daydream; No peace lies therein. Pursue the truth and begin Again. This is no template for peace, Give me some grace. I am but a novice, I care not, a familiar refrain. Your childish pleas mean nothing! I don’t disdain your character or sense of place But you are one fucked up dude. I don’t wish to be rude. Tell me something I don’t know. You can't face the truth of yourself.
I cut and I hacked 'Till the bodies Stacked up Behind me. I felt no remorse But of course The enemy would find me. He stood tall; I looked him in the eye And spied A weakness. Swords clashed, Sparks flew. No words spoken, A broken man Fights so hard, Harder than you knew When hope Is dashed.
I miss you most when evening falls And the night closes in, Darkness calls. It is the voice of the lonely And darker thoughts begin. I look for meaning And find only You. I look around my room. You made my life real. I feel I could walk through the walls; I could be anywhere, any time So insubstantial seems my world. “How long doctor?” ”Perhaps two years.” “What about a transplant?” “Unlikely with your record.” Friends and family are kind and loving But only I know the cost Of what I lost. You.