I tremble with

The fact I almost caught

You unawares;

But the stares

I receive

I want to believe,

But I cannot achieve

What I set out to do.

The glue

Of my life

Falls apart too easy.

The crazy way I live

I can’t forgive.

You were and are

Precious to me,

And I don’t see

Any way out.

I am not looking for a saviour;

My behaviour

Clouds that out.

Rank poison in my veins

Strains my heart.

But if I could start again

I would.