Letters on the hallway floor, Should I read them, I am not sure. Anxiously collected, Why do I feel insecure? Address is right, And the name, Council tax, Bills in the main. Then there’s one, I open first. Written in a pretty hand, Left unsigned, But I know who. Talks of love, I read it through, Several times. The paper, delicate, And thin, So I calm down. The rest declined, Go in bin!
You keep your distance, Its hard to explain, But I won't complain, Just give me a chance. I really don’t care, Actually I do. Perhaps I am untrue, Maybe I am a liar. I have no defence, Total transparency. That I see with clarity, Is no recompense. Not asking for trust, Please watch me. I think you will see, I do what I must.
Structure imposed, On the structureless. Meaning imposed, On the meaningless. The beauty of chaos, And the pointless, Juxtaposed. Reality paper thin. Trying to make sense, Where do I begin? Will someone ask, What’s going on? They don’t know, So I run, And jump the fence, Where will I land? At least I’ve gone. Forget the past. The time that spanned, And look ahead. Do what must be done.
Soft tones, Down the telephone. The catch of breath, Imagining their world together. Sweet pain of separation, Yet ties cannot be broken. Loves intoxication, Makes dizzy, With the expectation. So precious to each other. Hearts reaching, Always touching. Then face to face The beauty of embrace, Takes over.
Listen well in quiet rooms, There maybe something there. Speak soft amidst the noise of crowds, And your voice will be heard. Act when others do not dare, They are full of doubt and fear. Be generous when you have no more, And others do not care. Be free with love, And do not seek reward. Ask for less than you deserved, All of this will show The strength and quality, Of your own, Humanity.
He’s sentimental, Just a fool. With his dreams, Or so it seems. Moon light, Scented roses, Pose a question, That pulls, At his heart. Can he start? He must, Or he will go mental. Thinks he’s got a virus, Maybe he goes viral. Boom Boom, Whats that sound? Someone at the door. Never sure who. Does he answer, Or not? He forgot. Butt naked. Too much juice Feeling kinda loose. Love, like a cancer, Eating him away. He will see, Another day.
Blame, Taken fully, or not at all, Either point untrue. Along the line, Which joins the two. Where do I stand? The call is up to you. I cannot judge, Lest I am too easy, Or too harsh, But I must know, What part i played. I don’t know why, A guess would do. Try and measure, What cannot be measured. Thoughts and memories, Once treasured. When life and hope, Hang by a thread, And it breaks. Will something take its stead? Or am I just, The same.
Walking down dark streets. Darker thoughts follow him. Where does he begin? No story left, The warp and weft, Of life he wears, His cares in every stitch, Yet rich with ideas. He looks for ancient patterns, In a tidal wave of ancient passions, And turns another corner of the street. His search goes on, Once again on the run. To what, from what.? The house, Where it all happened. Passed by on the way to school. Waking, sleeping dreams, That rule. A stain never washed away Grows more livid by the day Revenge or sorrow Who can say Perhaps its both The memory still vivid.
New year’s eve, Brazilian style. Nephews, nieces, For a while. If this don’t make, You smile, You’re not a child, Inside. I know you are. You want to share, But you’re going spare, Inside. They fill the room. Different faces, Foreign language. You are just the groom, But you get it. That’s the way you are. You don’t have enough, To pay, For the happiness, You feel today. Will it last? The past is dead and buried, Shredded, cast aside. You have no pride? I believe you do. There is no telling, Of what you do, Next. I am spelling, It out for you. Now, move along, There is a queue.
Join the dots, Of my tears. Hear the fears, In my heart, What do they say to you? On my knees, In deep freeze, And praying, Don’t go down that hole. Don’t go down again, No, no, no. We both know you will. Transparent as glass, You spill light. But talk such shite, Late at night. Talk as if you, Have no choice, But you have a voice, So lets hear. Not Curtis, not Dylan, Or even John Lennon. Certainly not Shakespear, Or Chaucer, Merely the son of a grocer. Take no pride in humility, The deadliest sin of all. All servants wish to be masters, And you are no exception.
Little to do, But think of you.. So I prowl, and howl, Like a wolf, At the moon. See you soon I hope. Till then, Just cope. Life for the living, There is no way, Of knowing. At the end of a rope, Facing nothing, But you. You turn me on. Is there something, I am missing? Just one kiss from you.
Sorry, don’t know, Where time went. Eroded and corroded, Thrashed by sentiment. Chewed up and bent. Liked to get loaded, White wine, whiter lines, Screwed, smoking weed, So I could sleep. The days I nearly died, Mashed and ferment, This cannot be reconciled. Go your own way, I also want to play, But cannot say Which games to throw away. Easy to get in, Harder to get out, Like your head through the railings. The mind numbs, And whatever, The failings you, You think you got, Don’t follow, The crumbs. People try to bring me down, So I arrive as, Your clown.
Did you see him, On the highway? Was he wasted? Where was he going? I can’t say, There’s no way of knowing. How did he look? I suggest, A little forsook. Well, he must be in book. Check forensics DNA Is there a trace, any? No matches found. Perhaps he has gone to ground. Licked his wounds. Searching for sanctity. A precursor to finality, That is his psychopathy. Sir, he won't admit, To stuff he hadn’t done. But non the less, Will face societies retribution. He must confess. I will deal with him as i see fit.
Cleansing in the blood, Of those who came before. I was once a good man, But now I am not so sure. You ask the question, I give you more. Don’t know why I did it, Maybe even up some score? Test my heart, Is my timing flawed? You ask the question, I give you more. Shuffling down death row, To the chamber. Suddenly I remember, Why iam here. Don’t ask the question, I got no more.
With no kindness, Comes no fear. With the blindness, Comes no tear. You are party to the few. It didn’t seem I fitted, They wanted me committed. Always rational and polite, Depending on, Your point of view. De-rated and berated, I shattered their illusions. You can draw, Your own conclusions. I paid my debts in lieu. What I’ve given, What I lost. I don’t count the cost. Still driven, unforgiven. Where am I going to? A verse once shed, That has not bled, Deserves no recognition. A figment of imagination, Adieu.
Once, we did play; How we chased a million stars And touched as only one can. See, how I move, Chance would have you Glance at me To know how you move me. Long ago, how could I forego Holding you so closely. The stars came out, Their light shone and blinded When our joy was unbounded, And music sounded Sweet to my ear. Perhaps a tear, But you were near. Took my hand, Led me to a promised land. I had no fear. Where do I stop? I wont drop. I ain't bogus, Just deeply focused. Coming out of my shell See the hell I am living in.
Down, down, You shot me down. What must I prove 'Till I can reach the ground Where I can stand? I don’t care what it takes, Or what I have to do, I have nothing left to loose. You charmed my heart, It belongs to you. Not stolen, Given; Yet I am driven To ask Where did this start? Pangs of love Bite hard, Leaves marks Upon my flesh. But non the less I see this through. I know how to love, I think you know how too.
Keeps coming to my head I don’t cry no more, I think of you instead. Your eyes, smile, laughter; Not a chapter In the life I led. You were the book, The alpha and omega. Your flesh made permanent Indelible stain On the armour I wore. I was built like Caine But able to deliver more. Someone please call 999, She just shot me through the heart.
Too late, I have to demonstrate That I ain't got a screw loose. By now You should have worked it out; Running out of juice, Living on the fumes Of yesterday. And I pray Every day Nothing conclusive comes. You take the life That you choose. You can keep A spirit that runs deep, If it will amuse.
Come fly butterfly; We go together And I will try To show a better life. Reach out, hold my hand, You will not fall. We promised everything; Now hear my call. Sworn to the damned, But I can see angels. Where in the world Do I stand? I stand by you butterfly. Fly free, Fly free. The sunlight through your wings, So beautiful to see. Always and forever I will chase The butterfly in the sun, Hoping one day We can be together. Where our love began. Don’t be afraid, Rest on my hand; The greatest treasure A man could demand. Oh butterfly, oh butterfly Fly with me. Too late; I have to demonstrate. Memory takes me back. Most of all I miss you girl, The choice I make. You could break my heart. I don’t think you will.
Wings of wax and feathers, We glide From this maze, But remember: Don’t fly Too close to the sun; Or hopes and dreams Will melt. Now leap, We go together. Like I saw it with my own eyes, Saw the blaze as he fell And Daedalus flew on, While his only son Crash landed In the ocean. But he wasn’t dead, Instead Lives in my heart today.