Final Epilogue

What I am about to say Will leave your eyes agog. I have to go away. Death comes easy to me, But living is hard. The shards of ice May pierce my heart, But I can't betray The feelings I have, But I am quite sure you will tell me How should I feel today, So let's have no delay That cannot be explained. So I took a downgrade When I met the end; Grained visions of life Passed before me. I spare you the conclusion, Just my confusion, Just another fuck up kid Rushing the embarrassment Of change. Planet earth which Don’t reverse. How much starch. Don’t blame The poor cunt He was heading in the same way. He failed you at thought He should never Save. No you live, Never kept He was heading To keeping gold to deep golden brown.    

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Hot Day

You know it's quiet When you hear Your own breath. It tends to paralyse And mesmerise. I need to get out, See people. What people? In the street I smell the restaurants And the stale Ale of the pubs. I hear youthful laughter And distant chatter; The occasional car drives by And nothing seems ok. I Don’t believe It has to be this way. The stifling quiet On a stifling day. Look up, Look around. See what's lost can be found.      

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Choices

I don’t escape the thoughts I have They are with me forever, And aim quite clever. Do you believe, Do you believe In a shattered person Who endeavours To love? Yes I can, Yes I can. I can rebuild temperament.

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The Whole World

Every vow I take Every bone I break I can't shake you off. My love endures, There are no cures For the way I feel. I steal moments And memories. They come With such clarity; But part of me Wishes to forget, But that’s not an option. A frozen life Often misunderstood. I would that it were different. I hate the fact you left, But more, I can't get over you. I am not ashamed, My feelings are declaimed. The whole world looks on.

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Loving you

It's like the sun went out. I am in perpetual night; The slightest touch of you Thrills my heart. Where do I start? I have no skill at lying, Maybe but I can't. Love goes deep with me, The transparency Of what we had I can't forget. You knew me And I knew you. The value Of that relation Is not complicated; You have your life to lead And so I wasn’t good enough. I do not offer an explanation, But it is true. You never mean't to hurt me But the pain I feel inside I cannot confide. I knew I was right That night in the restaurant, On our first date. It thrills me live with me But you are too clever To fall for my pride.

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Lies

I , I never lied to you But the brew is stirred. What can I do? I lost control again But I tried, Never lied. Too precious And lovely to my eyes. I can't despise A man That took you from my side. You may deride The responsibility I keep Hidden inside, But pride Set me apart. I can't start to tell The pain I went through, But I loved you. The price I pay Would destroy A lesser man. With the dances and drink Leaves nothing to think; I blink it out But I don’t shout about it.

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Sweet Symphonia

There is nothing left, Bereft of ideas; But I go on instead. Come up and see; I know what love is And what it’s for. You are strange, A girl I never knew, I don’t have a clue But you were lovely In my eyes. Release, Release, Maybe I find some peace. (This girl going to break your heart) It’s the start Of something new. (She will definitely break it) Then what are you left with? Nothing.

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Consequences

I don’t know what I am doing Screwing girls I don’t know, But it shows Me in true light; Whore Monger at best. I choose confession Carefully, Coz' it’s not What you want to hear. I bare consequences Yet to unfold. I know I have been dissolute, A character trait Fate gave me. Was I mad, bad and dangerous to know? Possibly. Mixed up guy. The world will reveal its self To me.

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Sex Life

My sex life is Not important To me. I had no pussy in years. Not homosexual. My palms too hairy to hide. Perhaps a bit asexual. This is my confession. So you know the truth about me. Childhood memories spring back. I could no harm after that. A harmless man Lost in a world He did not understand. The finger pointing Don’t go away; They say it would. What could I do? I needed some escape. So so sorry to involve you, Brush it from your head. I know I did, But what the fuck I hope he is dead.

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Missing

The ships in the harbour All went away, Left me here; Took the cargo I hold precious, The cargo I hold dear And I grow reckless. Love a twin edged sword Of excitement and fear. The blade cuts deep and clear. Did you ever feel like this? A problem That one kiss Could solve Never resolved. Am I missing Something here? Please tell me if I am, It's not just a sham I won't believe. I think that I can Do this. I try And I try I try and try. I always miss.

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Extreme Sports

I don’t fall in love the usual way, Gamboling through meadowed fields Hand in hand; I am not that kind of man. I freebase Right from the top, I don’t care about the drop. If it feels right I will jump. I don’t know where it ends, Or if I will survive, But I know that I am alive; And if I crash and tumble, Crumble to the ground I will get up Try again. See through the pain And I remain.

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Epic Formulaic

- Epic 1 - New story, Same beginning. I know how this ends. Our hero, Melancholic, Deep on morals; How tragic he looks. He has no friends. Always on the move Definition of a loner. Short on words. Long on looks. Conversation through the eyes. But there’s a flaw. What does he hide? We try to guess. The love interest Sees him in a bar Reading a book. “Haven’t seen you here before” He shrugs. “Staying long?” He looks her up and down Without a care. Sees the wedding band. “Oh this. We are finished” she frowns. “Sure" his voice impassive. “I am not hitting on you.” “Never said you were.” His eyes more defensive. “ Do you smoke?” She nods. “Let's go outside. It is quieter. Cigarettes are so expensive Don’t you think? We can talk.”   - Epic 2 - “So what’s your story?” A traditional opening. “Do you want it ab initio?” “Abbey what?” “From the beginning, it's Latin.” “Let’s start there” “It would take too long.” “What’s your name, More importantly what is your game?" “My name is Gabriel.” “Like the angel?” “Yes” She smoked her cigarette To the quick. “I am no angel but things happen around me. I can't explain or forget but……” “But what?” “I am staying at the Elise, join me if you wish.” “Oh wow, only million….” Her words died away. Looking at his garb. He saw that. “You are one big secret, aren’t you?” “Let's go to the car.” It was a Rolls Royce, the driver waiting “The Elise sir?” “Yes Majors.” “Very good sir” looking through his rear view mirror. The meaning was ambiguous. Soon they arrived. “Hope you like it, I own it.”   - Epic 3 - “What “ “The “ “Fuck” Her world went dark. She had hit on him, Yet it was her Slammed out of the park. “I feel sick, need to go home.” “Majors, take her back. Let me give you my card. Please call.” Said more with eyes Than voice. As they drove away She beat the Camargue leather Like she had no choice. “Who does he think he is? Why does…

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The Hunt

The hunt for cunt Can I be blunt? Now I’ve tasted blood, Morality passed over As it always should. I talk to you as a friend. Perhaps I bend My own rules And if anyone objects Show me some respect, Let’s keep it cool And just forget. So diner at my favourite restaurant. I make you laugh. I am always discrete, I dress effete And after After The seduction is complete.

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White Marble

The virginal white marble Still leaves impressions on my face. I can’t retrace the past, It’s gone. What a waste I was. But the connection endures And floors me To the ground. You know that already; Stay steady and recoup My own sensory addiction. I will not improve The groove I am in. Don’t begin To tell the lie, The lie of  me. Been a liar all my life. Pretending when I shouldn’t. Made cash from chaos But I still believe In you.

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Queen

You are the queen of me, But I am surely no king. So many lacking Bring me to my knees. I look at you And I guess; The deprivation Is true. Taught me a lot, Most of which I forgot. You know I love you, I can’t abstain. I would fight or die for you, That is my right. Transcendent creature that you are, But you are far away. I have no complaints. But I am chained, bound. The sound of these shackles Cuts my heart.

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