Did you study Or were you taught? The difference is One comes from you, The other received. The margin for error is small; Don’t be deceived. It is as tall As a man in his grave. You will make mistakes Don’t be afraid, All you want can be achieved.
Choosing by the hour my confessions; Reap what you sow. Emotions will not grow, Give away possessions, A slow, ineffective Decision As you well know. I am only a voice I don’t do this from choice; But I am in your head I want to tell you to go But instead Probably go to bed. Will that be the end? I would not kiss and show.
Always a dreamer A schemer From an early age Turn the page Lets see Where it leads Discover the reality The image You receive Don’t buy This world is not What you think it is In case you forgot I kiss you briefly Good bye
In a world of plenty for a few And too little for the many The meek do not inherit The bullies do. They don’t care How they get there As long as they arrive, The arrogance of power Sweeping all aside But nothing changes Over the ages. Penned and branded We are as sheep Awaiting our commands, Lethargic, apathetic That is how they want us. A somnambulant public Watching Not doing Except for a few. I hide amongst the flock To cover my shame For really, Iam just the same.
Gradually, I became impossible, even to myself. Witnessing an interminable fall, My lifestyle ensured this was the only outcome I was oblivious, Blind to the consequences, But I knew this could not go on. The tedium of me left you no option. You deserved much, much more And falling in love will always trump hard currency Regardless of how much. The connections forged by emotion, The strongest. Money is just the score In a pointless game And greed the motivation. So I am left with friendship, And grateful for it. The spirit of your heart Beats for another. You will find me no trouble, If I can help, I will, No strings. I cannot consider others, it would be unfair, Because they are not you. These are the thoughts That I store.
I craved success Measured by money. I grew up thinking, this would make me happy, But it didn’t. I bought flash cars, Houses and clothes And rose to my limited potential. Thought I was special, A chosen one But I was not happy. Now that it was done Something happened in my head, This was confusing. I took a bruising, Eviscerated And berated. I could not bear to look at myself, The cost had been immeasurable. The fakes, I often state Will not break the fall of a man exculpate. I scale steep walls of confusion Like a “ free” climber. No ropes or harness Against a bleak mountain But surges and urges go on.
Maybe I am a reject, Spoilt goods, So I feel dejected. Much was expected. Head of school, captain of football, Not tall stories, But blind ambition cost more than I can ever show. I love you dearly That much you know, So its no surprise I can't compromise, No one else will do at all. As I write, I bite my knuckles Till they are raw And if I get the call, I will not go quietly. People look at me As I walk the streets. Is he a tragedy? Someone tell me As I can't see, But the penalty is great. I don’t believe in fate, And for the record I state I do not want a debate, So just step aside, My personal pride Is at stake
I was breathing for the moment from a one night stand. I know what I did. I repeat, no comment, But life toys with us all, And the fall Of a man can be great. This feels like a confession But its just too late. Not looking to ingratiate, But I am dead weight. I am a victim, Of the monument I created. I want this for the record And was always told, Things would be ok for me, But they weren’t. Fingers burnt, But I cant leave the field. Come back with your shield or, on it.
Don’t score with girls no more Bit of a bore. I find life a chore. I could sleep with a whore, And get STDs. Instinct tells me If this doesn’t kill me, It will make me stronger, But I am a stranger To myself. I have a limited shelf life, My sell by date already passed. Mom took thalidomide. It helps with morning sickness. I wasn’t born defective. That was down to me, And I find myself Mixed with controversy. Good guy, bad guy. Quick shag or marry. I have a second skin, Maybe a dozen more. The difference is thin. My implosion, In slow motion, I see every day. I understand the agony, My mental state Can fluctuate, From joy To utter despair. I thought this was How every one felt, But I was dealt A card of chance. It had your image on it, So I looked for romance. Like a stray dog seeking a home And when it doesn’t happen You cry to your soul. My tears are private, Even alone. A scavenger of life, Like an hyena. I could not say it plainer, Still a stranger To my life.
He walks with a swagger That’s something of a front Wears Savill Row suits But he feels like a c'nt There is a dagger in his pocket Which should not be there He could eat you for breakfast Without a care Quiet as a grave yard In the middle of the night You played with him once His last chance Blown away Went from hero To zero In your eyes Was waybegone But had the grit to carry on A white flag Tied to my gun Except peace A'int much fun to me I do whatever it takes To get things done My name is Ten Bears Only strength cares Survival walk free
There is a place I know Where the wild winds blow. You really shouldn’t go near. Any creature there Lives in fear When the wild winds blow. They sculpt the rocks And the valley bed Where once a river flowed. In winter they howl, How they howl, It can ice your blood, that’s so. Snow doesn’t fall Where the wild winds blow. But the crippling cold Can crack the rocks Destroying anything that grows. I went there once Where the wild winds blow Lost three toes And part of my nose. Don’t laugh, It's not funny Just don’t go!
Don’t give me shit, It just don’t fit. I ride my BMW Down the street Where the elite live. No one looks at me. I don’t rob liquor stores. Money bores me; You need it of course, But you are too young and clever And what ever happens I accept as finality. I was thinking the same thing. Ding Ding, Enter the ring once more First punch means something. You cant forget Once you heard it. The turgid repetition Is complete, But has no harmony And the spell on me Cannot defy gravity. I wish it would, An angel without wings To fly, Just mere mortal And brings Passions of desire. The fire of man. I have the resting heart beat Of a dolphin or whale So I am drawn to sea.
I need a place to go and hideaway; I can't stay here any more. The core of my problem, All too evident. I wish I had the wits To prevent What is happening to me, But I don’t. Wake up Wake up. Amazingly, I find myself still alive. How can this be? The self imposed abuse I go through every day Would kill an elephant What does that say about me? Resilient I guess.
You do not hold back. I know this is true. I said 'I love you' back on you. The sirens scream for an arrest; I detest, that’s an early warning. The sun is dawning. Will I pull through? I must try Or die. You were my magic vixen; A fighter through and through. Ready to save, And be brave good.
Am I an angel, Or the devil incarnate? Now have to stand on my own two feet And listen to the beat Of my heart. What does this say about me? I am not a loner, I delight in eccentricity. Troubled minds I can cope with, The clover they live in. Students who walk down my street Don’t realise It's tough out there. That’s not on the curriculum, Life is not to play for fun; But the sun also rises On those who don’t run. Commitment was essential. I never really worked, Just had causes I believed in. I did my best With what little talent I had.
I write this just for you. I understand what you are going through. There is no closure; Life exposed In its rawest. The pain is great, Don’t operate. I feel the lash too; But we can be heroes, After a fashion. Hold my hand, I can take you there. Where are we now? "I don’t know, But we have to accept Pronto” No escape from humanity.
In a corner stands a boxer, His anger and his rage begin again. He will not give in, But the guy ahead of him Needs an uppercut to the chin. Don’t back off Don’t back off The audience goes wild. See my suffering, Is that not fun for you? A bloodied face and a broken nose, So I pick up the pace. You don’t get paid overtime rates, Prize money is at stake; A few body shots But my right hand is really hot So my trainer says. Even though I broke my arm Thought I would never fight Again. I see my opportunity, The brutality of this game Beggars belief. So I put him down Take the cash And walk away.
I must have slept all day, Then the night begins again. This time belongs to me. My nerves are red raw, Morning betrays the score; They are paper thin. Light makes the darkness Oppressive. Maybe I am just guessing I could change. But that was just a dream I Once paid lip service To
The portrait in the picture, A sad and lonely man. But the eyes; The eyes can't tell a lie. The stricture It imposes just a mockery Of truth. Can you lie again? I seek a truth And I will never stop you there. But shoulder and brace For a last embrace, And no one will care But I will have peace.
The battles lines are drawn, The scornful hate withdrawn. I will go toe to toe With anyone you know. I have lost my greatest treasure; But the measure Of a man Is what he fights for. Justice, Freedom Is what he claims. But they do not know What happens in dreams. Pass away And the schemes Fall apart. And when he calls Will you pick up the phone he just needs to hear your voice? One more time.
Say something outrageous, Come on you can do it. But the fluidity of speech Evades me. I was once courageous, But the battle lines Reach. I have no idea Where I am going with this. I extemporise. Don’t patronise me; It’s a shocker of a story Just let me be.