Some people might get some pleasure; You're not one, I am sure. On my radio I can put on a show. You were my anchor, Now I am all at sea. Pen to page I don’t know where this leads, It's unformed Like me. But you get what you see. Made many mistakes But never deceived; I love you too much Now I can't touch.
Welcome to my world; You are not my girl. I pretend you are But you are far away. The distance is immeasurable, But your company always pleasurable. I really need you, But that ain't going to happen So I withdraw And claw my way back to reality. My eyes are open, I think I am coping But I don’t know how My luck ran out.
Every vow I take Every bone I break I can't shake you off. My love endures, There are no cures For the way I feel. I steal moments And memories. They come With such clarity; But part of me Wishes to forget, But that’s not an option. A frozen life Often misunderstood. I would that it were different. I hate the fact you left, But more, I can't get over you. I am not ashamed, My feelings are declaimed. The whole world looks on.
It's like the sun went out. I am in perpetual night; The slightest touch of you Thrills my heart. Where do I start? I have no skill at lying, Maybe but I can't. Love goes deep with me, The transparency Of what we had I can't forget. You knew me And I knew you. The value Of that relation Is not complicated; You have your life to lead And so I wasn’t good enough. I do not offer an explanation, But it is true. You never mean't to hurt me But the pain I feel inside I cannot confide. I knew I was right That night in the restaurant, On our first date. It thrills me live with me But you are too clever To fall for my pride.
I , I never lied to you But the brew is stirred. What can I do? I lost control again But I tried, Never lied. Too precious And lovely to my eyes. I can't despise A man That took you from my side. You may deride The responsibility I keep Hidden inside, But pride Set me apart. I can't start to tell The pain I went through, But I loved you. The price I pay Would destroy A lesser man. With the dances and drink Leaves nothing to think; I blink it out But I don’t shout about it.
There is nothing left, Bereft of ideas; But I go on instead. Come up and see; I know what love is And what it’s for. You are strange, A girl I never knew, I don’t have a clue But you were lovely In my eyes. Release, Release, Maybe I find some peace. (This girl going to break your heart) It’s the start Of something new. (She will definitely break it) Then what are you left with? Nothing.
I don’t know what I am doing Screwing girls I don’t know, But it shows Me in true light; Whore Monger at best. I choose confession Carefully, Coz' it’s not What you want to hear. I bare consequences Yet to unfold. I know I have been dissolute, A character trait Fate gave me. Was I mad, bad and dangerous to know? Possibly. Mixed up guy. The world will reveal its self To me.
My sex life is Not important To me. I had no pussy in years. Not homosexual. My palms too hairy to hide. Perhaps a bit asexual. This is my confession. So you know the truth about me. Childhood memories spring back. I could no harm after that. A harmless man Lost in a world He did not understand. The finger pointing Don’t go away; They say it would. What could I do? I needed some escape. So so sorry to involve you, Brush it from your head. I know I did, But what the fuck I hope he is dead.
I don’t fall in love the usual way, Gamboling through meadowed fields Hand in hand; I am not that kind of man. I freebase Right from the top, I don’t care about the drop. If it feels right I will jump. I don’t know where it ends, Or if I will survive, But I know that I am alive; And if I crash and tumble, Crumble to the ground I will get up Try again. See through the pain And I remain.
If I walk away Would you have me stay? Then take my hand. Watch the sun go down The sea at our feet? The silent stars Reflected in your eyes, I start to realise I could drown in you. I am not afraid. This moment was made For those who are true.
- Epic 1 - New story, Same beginning. I know how this ends. Our hero, Melancholic, Deep on morals; How tragic he looks. He has no friends. Always on the move Definition of a loner. Short on words. Long on looks. Conversation through the eyes. But there’s a flaw. What does he hide? We try to guess. The love interest Sees him in a bar Reading a book. “Haven’t seen you here before” He shrugs. “Staying long?” He looks her up and down Without a care. Sees the wedding band. “Oh this. We are finished” she frowns. “Sure" his voice impassive. “I am not hitting on you.” “Never said you were.” His eyes more defensive. “ Do you smoke?” She nods. “Let's go outside. It is quieter. Cigarettes are so expensive Don’t you think? We can talk.” - Epic 2 - “So what’s your story?” A traditional opening. “Do you want it ab initio?” “Abbey what?” “From the beginning, it's Latin.” “Let’s start there” “It would take too long.” “What’s your name, More importantly what is your game?" “My name is Gabriel.” “Like the angel?” “Yes” She smoked her cigarette To the quick. “I am no angel but things happen around me. I can't explain or forget but……” “But what?” “I am staying at the Elise, join me if you wish.” “Oh wow, only million….” Her words died away. Looking at his garb. He saw that. “You are one big secret, aren’t you?” “Let's go to the car.” It was a Rolls Royce, the driver waiting “The Elise sir?” “Yes Majors.” “Very good sir” looking through his rear view mirror. The meaning was ambiguous. Soon they arrived. “Hope you like it, I own it.” - Epic 3 - “What “ “The “ “Fuck” Her world went dark. She had hit on him, Yet it was her Slammed out of the park. “I feel sick, need to go home.” “Majors, take her back. Let me give you my card. Please call.” Said more with eyes Than voice. As they drove away She beat the Camargue leather Like she had no choice. “Who does he think he is? Why does…
The hunt for cunt Can I be blunt? Now I’ve tasted blood, Morality passed over As it always should. I talk to you as a friend. Perhaps I bend My own rules And if anyone objects Show me some respect, Let’s keep it cool And just forget. So diner at my favourite restaurant. I make you laugh. I am always discrete, I dress effete And after After The seduction is complete.
The virginal white marble Still leaves impressions on my face. I can’t retrace the past, It’s gone. What a waste I was. But the connection endures And floors me To the ground. You know that already; Stay steady and recoup My own sensory addiction. I will not improve The groove I am in. Don’t begin To tell the lie, The lie of me. Been a liar all my life. Pretending when I shouldn’t. Made cash from chaos But I still believe In you.
You are the queen of me, But I am surely no king. So many lacking Bring me to my knees. I look at you And I guess; The deprivation Is true. Taught me a lot, Most of which I forgot. You know I love you, I can’t abstain. I would fight or die for you, That is my right. Transcendent creature that you are, But you are far away. I have no complaints. But I am chained, bound. The sound of these shackles Cuts my heart.
I would do anything To get over you, But the ping in my head Calls me to attention. I don’t need to mention the past, You know it already. It's disrespectful That you traduce her And me by association. Who the fuck do you think you are? You cannot talk to me like that. You may make me cry But believe I will get over it.
Never let it be said That romance is dead. For there’s so little else Going on in my head. I wake up each day, Try to wish it away And I bide my time. So I climb the walls instead. What you said hurts And the buttons are pressed. Please don’t do this to me. I know I failed But that ship has sailed Long ago. Undeserving wretch that I am I am still a man.
Do you remember when We loved each other? I won't bother with that again Lovers take from each other. But you left me falling apart. I will start again. Yes I will And I can. I have no hatred, But the sentiment Still remains. Maybe I have to pretend. I loved you like no other could. I don’t care what he says, He preys on the soul. You are better than that.
You hurt But I don’t cry No more. Tears ran dry Long time ago. But I worry For my heart. I want to explain; And I try And I try. Sort of constant refrain. Find it hard to let go; Perhaps I never will. We climbed the precipice Of love And I took the pain In a fall from grace. Currents of time Can't wash away How I feel today, As I remember Every thing.
Lessons learned That cannot be retrieved; My memory imperfect But the sessions I reject. I don’t look for war But the score won't Be relieved. And so I am turned. I am stronger Than you believe, Though spurned Like a beggar. Unlock my chain Again. No mercy No reprieve, I can fight And feel no pain.
He walked home Tonight And debated in his head. Now alone, Never answered the phone. Locked himself in his room. But couldn’t sleep Looking for a tone. Something he could keep. Love is a mystery At least to me. And it has history. Can he make that leap?
I washed her with care; My touch gentle. All the time, admiring her body, As water dripped over her curves. Having finished the task (Which was my pleasure) I then left. On my return She had dried In the warmth of the sun. A blinding magnificence No man could spurn. So I reached for my helmet. And we went for a ride.