You’re the first the last, The alpha and omega. Keep looking for the contrast, But, I see you, So I don’t think, Blink it away. Found someone else ok?, But you happen to stay, In my heart. What the fuck! No, no, don’t get me started, You wouldn’t like it any way. Speedy misconjunction rises. Like the tears of a lion.
Sordid details won't go away. Try to kill them, But they stay. You can't run and hide, They hunt you down. You never lied. I know you tried. Now its all gone. What of his poor son? I will not get derailed By this again. Enough, now it's done.
Development arrested, But tested, To the limit. I could never be a man, Just a child, Inside. Some women thought me handsome, But the ransom, Once paid, Always brought rejection. Overlaid, With fear, Self doubt. My heart is open, Tell me what you see, A man or child?, Or the monstrosity, I became, To be?
You don’t get confused, By the body of Christ, And so I rise. Three days, Just to look at you, I don’t want to lose. I choose my moment, So specifically, I don’t judge. Romance, I will not comment.
Change the beat. I never cheat. Could I ever, Repeat that? Don’t leave. Maybe could. Do I deviate? Why the lie? You never told. So I grow cold. Said I have addictive, Personality, To the truth. Was not enough, For you.
Going down, Feeling it’s the beat. Going underground, Where I don’t make a sound. So many memories, In the lost and found. I can be discreet. What, Did I say? Repeat. Just said I loved you, On the street, But there is no witness, To the kiss.
The ruptured structure, Of our lives, Denies, The truth. If you want proof, A heart so broken Can't be put back together, Unless someone, Picks it up, Walks with it, Runs with it, To fields of rapture.
Happiness, step on my mind. Take liberties, Where I find, But not with you. Stew me out, I can handle it. Show me the door, As I kiss you, J'adore. I got more, Than this. Don’t take the piss. So, took a trip to Palestine, When I kind of lost my mind. I saw hatred, Bite the hook, Take a look, It really sucks. I don’t rhyme for pleasure, But political rhetoric, In equal strength and measure. Kodachrome, black and white, All magic in the neon home.
No idea where I take this don’t want to share. Mental illness, Is not a disease, But please me, Don’t walk away, From me Sometimes I think stoically, You can burn the past. It won't last. Will always bite you in the ass. Memories forgiven, Driven by, What you think you did. You did nothing.
Letters on the hallway floor, Should I read them, I am not sure. Anxiously collected, Why do I feel insecure? Address is right, And the name, Council tax, Bills in the main. Then there’s one, I open first. Written in a pretty hand, Left unsigned, But I know who. Talks of love, I read it through, Several times. The paper, delicate, And thin, So I calm down. The rest declined, Go in bin!
Soft tones, Down the telephone. The catch of breath, Imagining their world together. Sweet pain of separation, Yet ties cannot be broken. Loves intoxication, Makes dizzy, With the expectation. So precious to each other. Hearts reaching, Always touching. Then face to face The beauty of embrace, Takes over.
Listen well in quiet rooms, There maybe something there. Speak soft amidst the noise of crowds, And your voice will be heard. Act when others do not dare, They are full of doubt and fear. Be generous when you have no more, And others do not care. Be free with love, And do not seek reward. Ask for less than you deserved, All of this will show The strength and quality, Of your own, Humanity.
He’s sentimental, Just a fool. With his dreams, Or so it seems. Moon light, Scented roses, Pose a question, That pulls, At his heart. Can he start? He must, Or he will go mental. Thinks he’s got a virus, Maybe he goes viral. Boom Boom, Whats that sound? Someone at the door. Never sure who. Does he answer, Or not? He forgot. Butt naked. Too much juice Feeling kinda loose. Love, like a cancer, Eating him away. He will see, Another day.
New year’s eve, Brazilian style. Nephews, nieces, For a while. If this don’t make, You smile, You’re not a child, Inside. I know you are. You want to share, But you’re going spare, Inside. They fill the room. Different faces, Foreign language. You are just the groom, But you get it. That’s the way you are. You don’t have enough, To pay, For the happiness, You feel today. Will it last? The past is dead and buried, Shredded, cast aside. You have no pride? I believe you do. There is no telling, Of what you do, Next. I am spelling, It out for you. Now, move along, There is a queue.
Join the dots, Of my tears. Hear the fears, In my heart, What do they say to you? On my knees, In deep freeze, And praying, Don’t go down that hole. Don’t go down again, No, no, no. We both know you will. Transparent as glass, You spill light. But talk such shite, Late at night. Talk as if you, Have no choice, But you have a voice, So lets hear. Not Curtis, not Dylan, Or even John Lennon. Certainly not Shakespear, Or Chaucer, Merely the son of a grocer. Take no pride in humility, The deadliest sin of all. All servants wish to be masters, And you are no exception.
Little to do, But think of you.. So I prowl, and howl, Like a wolf, At the moon. See you soon I hope. Till then, Just cope. Life for the living, There is no way, Of knowing. At the end of a rope, Facing nothing, But you. You turn me on. Is there something, I am missing? Just one kiss from you.
Sorry, don’t know, Where time went. Eroded and corroded, Thrashed by sentiment. Chewed up and bent. Liked to get loaded, White wine, whiter lines, Screwed, smoking weed, So I could sleep. The days I nearly died, Mashed and ferment, This cannot be reconciled. Go your own way, I also want to play, But cannot say Which games to throw away. Easy to get in, Harder to get out, Like your head through the railings. The mind numbs, And whatever, The failings you, You think you got, Don’t follow, The crumbs. People try to bring me down, So I arrive as, Your clown.
Once, we did play; How we chased a million stars And touched as only one can. See, how I move, Chance would have you Glance at me To know how you move me. Long ago, how could I forego Holding you so closely. The stars came out, Their light shone and blinded When our joy was unbounded, And music sounded Sweet to my ear. Perhaps a tear, But you were near. Took my hand, Led me to a promised land. I had no fear. Where do I stop? I wont drop. I ain't bogus, Just deeply focused. Coming out of my shell See the hell I am living in.
Down, down, You shot me down. What must I prove 'Till I can reach the ground Where I can stand? I don’t care what it takes, Or what I have to do, I have nothing left to loose. You charmed my heart, It belongs to you. Not stolen, Given; Yet I am driven To ask Where did this start? Pangs of love Bite hard, Leaves marks Upon my flesh. But non the less I see this through. I know how to love, I think you know how too.
Keeps coming to my head I don’t cry no more, I think of you instead. Your eyes, smile, laughter; Not a chapter In the life I led. You were the book, The alpha and omega. Your flesh made permanent Indelible stain On the armour I wore. I was built like Caine But able to deliver more. Someone please call 999, She just shot me through the heart.
Come fly butterfly; We go together And I will try To show a better life. Reach out, hold my hand, You will not fall. We promised everything; Now hear my call. Sworn to the damned, But I can see angels. Where in the world Do I stand? I stand by you butterfly. Fly free, Fly free. The sunlight through your wings, So beautiful to see. Always and forever I will chase The butterfly in the sun, Hoping one day We can be together. Where our love began. Don’t be afraid, Rest on my hand; The greatest treasure A man could demand. Oh butterfly, oh butterfly Fly with me. Too late; I have to demonstrate. Memory takes me back. Most of all I miss you girl, The choice I make. You could break my heart. I don’t think you will.