I write this just for you. I understand what you are going through. There is no closure; Life exposed In its rawest. The pain is great, Don’t operate. I feel the lash too; But we can be heroes, After a fashion. Hold my hand, I can take you there. Where are we now? "I don’t know, But we have to accept Pronto” No escape from humanity.
All my instincts Told me I have for you, Would never be through, But I threw it away. As I say this I cry. It hurts, Causes pain in My guts. Why Why Why? How could I have been so stupid. Cupid's arrow I can't take out. I will love you 'Til the day I die
The portrait in the picture, A sad and lonely man. But the eyes; The eyes can't tell a lie. The stricture It imposes just a mockery Of truth. Can you lie again? I seek a truth And I will never stop you there. But shoulder and brace For a last embrace, And no one will care But I will have peace.
You seem to know all about me; I know nothing of you sir. Please tell me who you are. No. I wont look on anymore, Your countenance says all. You look, sound and act like me, Yet you are not. If you had anything Of meaning To say to me Say it now, Or forever hold thy peace. Aren’t they the words? A psychotic, narcissistic alcoholic. Difficult combo I deserve rejection. Hollow bridges With hollow themes. The kind that surface in my dreams. I cannot cross. Mere product of imagination.
When emissions don’t unfold We begin again. It stretches, it folds. Waves before Are no more, Yet the cold Embarrasses Thee. Don’t be ashamed You were claimed a long time ago.
I, I can remember The falls I had. But you, That’s you I said Rescued me from garbage Without invective. This may be retrospective Musings of a life once held, Now disconnected. They only review So nothing is new. Look around, See the view. I look for the constants; The gravity of mass Speed of light, Yet I am tied to the mast. This heroic prose Does nothing. I set sail on an ocean vast Seeking the legendary who.
I tremble with The fact I almost caught You unawares; But the stares I receive I want to believe, But I cannot achieve What I set out to do. The glue Of my life Falls apart too easy. The crazy way I live I can't forgive. You were and are Precious to me, And I don’t see Any way out. I am not looking for a saviour; My behaviour Clouds that out. Rank poison in my veins Strains my heart. But if I could start again I would.
What I am about to say Will leave your eyes agog. I have to go away. Death comes easy to me, But living is hard. The shards of ice May pierce my heart, But I can't betray The feelings I have, But I am quite sure you will tell me How should I feel today, So let's have no delay That cannot be explained. So I took a downgrade When I met the end; Grained visions of life Passed before me. I spare you the conclusion, Just my confusion, Just another fuck up kid Rushing the embarrassment Of change. Planet earth which Don’t reverse. How much starch. Don’t blame The poor cunt He was heading in the same way. He failed you at thought He should never Save. No you live, Never kept He was heading To keeping gold to deep golden brown.
Every time tied to the mast, Passing oceans Way too vast. I am not forgiven In my improvision. This cannot last, Go out with a blast. Not much at stake. It's all in the past, But memory lives, Casts a spell I can't quell.
I woke up; This was going through my head, The dread rhymes That can't be said, Only read And then forgotten. Consigned To the pit of mind. Did I set the bar too high? And if I did I wonder why. I have dreams And they will stay with me. I feel them bind. As ever, Unresigned.
Some people might get some pleasure; You're not one, I am sure. On my radio I can put on a show. You were my anchor, Now I am all at sea. Pen to page I don’t know where this leads, It's unformed Like me. But you get what you see. Made many mistakes But never deceived; I love you too much Now I can't touch.
Say something outrageous, Come on you can do it. But the fluidity of speech Evades me. I was once courageous, But the battle lines Reach. I have no idea Where I am going with this. I extemporise. Don’t patronise me; It’s a shocker of a story Just let me be.
Welcome to my world; You are not my girl. I pretend you are But you are far away. The distance is immeasurable, But your company always pleasurable. I really need you, But that ain't going to happen So I withdraw And claw my way back to reality. My eyes are open, I think I am coping But I don’t know how My luck ran out.
I don’t know what I am doing Screwing girls I don’t know, But it shows Me in true light; Whore Monger at best. I choose confession Carefully, Coz' it’s not What you want to hear. I bare consequences Yet to unfold. I know I have been dissolute, A character trait Fate gave me. Was I mad, bad and dangerous to know? Possibly. Mixed up guy. The world will reveal its self To me.
My sex life is Not important To me. I had no pussy in years. Not homosexual. My palms too hairy to hide. Perhaps a bit asexual. This is my confession. So you know the truth about me. Childhood memories spring back. I could no harm after that. A harmless man Lost in a world He did not understand. The finger pointing Don’t go away; They say it would. What could I do? I needed some escape. So so sorry to involve you, Brush it from your head. I know I did, But what the fuck I hope he is dead.
I love the way you laugh. My soul cries out For a woman like that. You are not there for me So let’s make a pact. You know I love, leave that aside. You can ride me senseless; You love my cock, I love your cunt. A simple equation. Maybe I am too blunt. No time to mess around, Don’t be in the lost and found. You’re much better than that.
I am a lyrical lover. I have no disguise, Unlike Batman, And I don’t fight crimes. I am just a guy who tries, And I see in your eyes, You may want me too. With my hand on your thigh, I feel you shiver right through. One look at your face I want to dive into you. I don’t come up for air, For the pleasure down there. Something has arisen, And there’s no going back. My clothes feel like a prison, And get dropped in a stack. Desire must be fed Now, woman, get into my bed.
She was more than lips and eyes, A certain sadness perhaps I could repair, But our exchange on the stair Told of something else. She didn’t need me. Yes, she had a comic book beauty. To want a woman so much Hurts the guts. She sticks in the mind, Draws you in, You’re not sure Where it begins. Looking for a reason, But you don’t know why, She had you down to a”T”. You think you’re smart, But you just know more tricks than me. What a prick you were, And I can be objective, Irrespective of consequence. She loved you! What was wrong with you? Where you waiting for something else? You barely knew yourself? But now you know, A seed planted Will always grow.
There is a story here, A man so bold, Something of a cavalier. Liked a challenge, Had no fear. This is how it's told. Riding in the woods one day He spied a maid, lovely to behold, And approaching her did say, "Good lady, take my hand, I mean you no disgrace". This is how it's told. His courtship was untutored, But his chivalry took hold. And what he lacked In natural grace, Was made up in a kindly face. This is how it's told. But he reflected sadly, Girls want more, and are not sold On brave, courageous knights Who will fight For a woman. This is how it's told. She said “remove your breeches Courtly love is all too cold. So many manners, So little sex". He stammered for a reply. This is how it's told. She left him like a wet fish on the bank, Looking very far from bold. Confused he dressed without delay And asked "what just happened?”. She replied “you are my third today!” This is how its told. If anyone should doubt this tale, Of fallen men And fallen girls, Take heed and think again. No bold knights, No fair maids, Simply men and women.
I wanted to hate her, but I couldn’t. Showed me something that I shouldn’t. I would not witness again, so I wouldn’t. I don’t tell lies to my dying day, So I walked away, And so I pray. Only thing I say, In my defence, There was no recompense, My love for her was spent. She came as a young man’s dreams, A kinda love, So it seems, Took me. Asked her number, Didn’t give it. Her husband home soon, So no room for me. Draft a different persona, So, I went casually, A visit to the docs. Took an STD, Said I was clean, But I wasn’t.
You don’t get confused, By the body of Christ, And so I rise. Three days, Just to look at you, I don’t want to lose. I choose my moment, So specifically, I don’t judge. Romance, I will not comment.