Seeing Within & Without

Transference

“He is in room three sir, but sir?” “What man?” “See for yourself. There is something not right about him” I entered the room. He did not even look up. Instead a tired laugh, smoking a cigarette. “This is a no smoking zone” “Are you going to charge with that too?” “I guess not. Do you know why you were brought in here?” “I have no fucking idea” “Don’t swear at me!” “I speak as I like” Then his eyes opened, Full of darkness, No contrition, No remorse, A criminal. He stared me down, I looked away. I let him go of course, You can't control the devil He is definitely a force.

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Him Again

I was wakeful, Took out fags And a bottle of wine. The sun wouldn’t shine. But if time lags I didn’t care, I had to meet his stare. I knew he was coming, I think I just should have kept on running, But I didn’t dare; The devil after me His eyes blazed with glee. I found you at last, Look, that’s all in the past But you have no future see.

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Dave

My first friend At a new school, I didn’t know the rule, But I was willing to bend. He was crippled from birth; Polio was rife. He was the only kid Who would give me no grief. Did I fall in love? He had a handsome face, His shoulders broad and muscular. One day I saw him caught By Elliot, A cheeky little prick, But he ought to know The strength of the lad. I felt quite sick. "Don’t do it Dave!" As he grabbed him by the throat. He looked at me and winked; Let him fall Against the wall. Dave walked by, His calliper squeaked Then turned to me and said: "Will you always back me up?" "Sure, you are my friend" but my voice was weak, I could not find the words to say Friendship and love Friendship and love Thinner than a surgeon's glove. No one has explained to me this day. But when the kissing starts Friendship ends And the dove Flies far away.

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Beauty

Match this. One kiss from you Brought me to a temper. I don’t remember Ever feeling this way. Loss of control, My soul taken. I did not want to fall in love, So many hearts broken, Or stolen. But you were not a thief, I treasure you. Took pleasure In the time we had But deeply, deeply sad That this is over too. Your loveliness Compounds the state I am in.

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A A Meetings

Seems we never can escape drudgery because it's the most prolific and welcomed comfort, despite hating it. No snuffing out please, life is hard enough sometimes and negativity only serves miserable people who hold you back with promises they can't possibly keep. Shame but true. “Hello everyone, my name is Steve and I am an alcoholic” “Hi” the assembled room would say “I think it was chronic, I sure had to pay” I then had their attention, They had heard it all before; My story, a bit different Because I wasn’t poor. I can entertain a crowd, Even raise the roof, But I never lied, Just didn’t speak the truth. Life growing up was hard enough, I see from your faces, you found it tough I will not dissemble any more, I find all this a fucking bore.

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Leather

She wore leather like a leopard, Close fit, And nice tits too. I did not want to jeopardise My chances. She did not glance, Just looked. Not a stare Merely an appraisal, And once summed up I acquiesced. I did not care To ask her name Lest we be misunderstood And no good comes from that. I take the blame, But I am glad I came. Same results again Nothing special But not you.

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Honour

Who gets paid for honour? Bloody bandages, Loss of limbs That only skims The surface. Pornography of disaster Or would you rather Look away? I no longer can. Not enough time, People to meet; I always lived On easy street. But a man restored Can make a difference, Not just plaster Over walls. Already broken, Soaking in the blood Of those who came before, No reverence paid. But the calls haunt me I hope that’s understood.

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Shanty

She drinks dark rum And chews tobacco, A true mulatto. I think she loved me, Let's roll and see. Fill the sails lads, Glad to be at sea Again. Show a manly bearing But the searing Pain I feel. My voice faulters, Gets all staccato I loved her too.

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New Page

A new page, Her shrewd gaze Put me in a cage, Drew out all my rage. Could I stage One last performance? The romance gone Common sense prevails. "You sail with the wind" The toothless boatman said, The oar in his hand. His bland Entreaties Did not command So who is exposed? Only me I suppose; So I stood naked, Pictures and mirrors Tell lies. Rake them over Behind the disguise There is a real man.

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