You seem to know all about me; I know nothing of you sir. Please tell me who you are. No. I wont look on anymore, Your countenance says all. You look, sound and act like me, Yet you are not. If you had anything Of meaning To say to me Say it now, Or forever hold thy peace. Aren’t they the words? A psychotic, narcissistic alcoholic. Difficult combo I deserve rejection. Hollow bridges With hollow themes. The kind that surface in my dreams. I cannot cross. Mere product of imagination.
The wind through the wire Makes a tune Yet no one plays. The dreams I have Do not inspire, Only delay. The heart beats, But I am tired Of the monotony. Eventually it got to me. Chose. Will I blow with the wind, Remain strong? Or listen to the tune Accept I don’t belong.
When emissions don’t unfold We begin again. It stretches, it folds. Waves before Are no more, Yet the cold Embarrasses Thee. Don’t be ashamed You were claimed a long time ago.
I, I can remember The falls I had. But you, That’s you I said Rescued me from garbage Without invective. This may be retrospective Musings of a life once held, Now disconnected. They only review So nothing is new. Look around, See the view. I look for the constants; The gravity of mass Speed of light, Yet I am tied to the mast. This heroic prose Does nothing. I set sail on an ocean vast Seeking the legendary who.
Don’t now don’t leave me this way. I can't resist your tender kiss And it touches my heart. I can never love another And that is that; But I loved you. Maybe not fully expressed, But I did. Don’t you know little fool You never can win? Face the reality, Step up, wise up to reality. But each time I had can't improve Nothing would ever move, So I am screwed. That’s just what I said. I, I can remember Climbing up walls, But vaults of time Not so refined I bend the rules. Do they offer justice? I think not, look, Try to redefine me. But each time I think Just the thought of you Makes me stop. Before I begin Coz' I've got you under my skin.
You will never know How much I loved you. You will never know how much I cared. But it's time to check out; That’s what this stories about. No more dreams. If that seems old fashioned I just gotta let it out. The bout of fear I expressed; I was never depressed. Just have to say it out loud You got under my skin.
I tremble with The fact I almost caught You unawares; But the stares I receive I want to believe, But I cannot achieve What I set out to do. The glue Of my life Falls apart too easy. The crazy way I live I can't forgive. You were and are Precious to me, And I don’t see Any way out. I am not looking for a saviour; My behaviour Clouds that out. Rank poison in my veins Strains my heart. But if I could start again I would.
What I am about to say Will leave your eyes agog. I have to go away. Death comes easy to me, But living is hard. The shards of ice May pierce my heart, But I can't betray The feelings I have, But I am quite sure you will tell me How should I feel today, So let's have no delay That cannot be explained. So I took a downgrade When I met the end; Grained visions of life Passed before me. I spare you the conclusion, Just my confusion, Just another fuck up kid Rushing the embarrassment Of change. Planet earth which Don’t reverse. How much starch. Don’t blame The poor cunt He was heading in the same way. He failed you at thought He should never Save. No you live, Never kept He was heading To keeping gold to deep golden brown.
Every time tied to the mast, Passing oceans Way too vast. I am not forgiven In my improvision. This cannot last, Go out with a blast. Not much at stake. It's all in the past, But memory lives, Casts a spell I can't quell.
I woke up; This was going through my head, The dread rhymes That can't be said, Only read And then forgotten. Consigned To the pit of mind. Did I set the bar too high? And if I did I wonder why. I have dreams And they will stay with me. I feel them bind. As ever, Unresigned.
You know it's quiet When you hear Your own breath. It tends to paralyse And mesmerise. I need to get out, See people. What people? In the street I smell the restaurants And the stale Ale of the pubs. I hear youthful laughter And distant chatter; The occasional car drives by And nothing seems ok. I Don’t believe It has to be this way. The stifling quiet On a stifling day. Look up, Look around. See what's lost can be found.
Some people might get some pleasure; You're not one, I am sure. On my radio I can put on a show. You were my anchor, Now I am all at sea. Pen to page I don’t know where this leads, It's unformed Like me. But you get what you see. Made many mistakes But never deceived; I love you too much Now I can't touch.
Say something outrageous, Come on you can do it. But the fluidity of speech Evades me. I was once courageous, But the battle lines Reach. I have no idea Where I am going with this. I extemporise. Don’t patronise me; It’s a shocker of a story Just let me be.
Welcome to my world; You are not my girl. I pretend you are But you are far away. The distance is immeasurable, But your company always pleasurable. I really need you, But that ain't going to happen So I withdraw And claw my way back to reality. My eyes are open, I think I am coping But I don’t know how My luck ran out.
I don’t escape the thoughts I have They are with me forever, And aim quite clever. Do you believe, Do you believe In a shattered person Who endeavours To love? Yes I can, Yes I can. I can rebuild temperament.
It's like the sun went out. I am in perpetual night; The slightest touch of you Thrills my heart. Where do I start? I have no skill at lying, Maybe but I can't. Love goes deep with me, The transparency Of what we had I can't forget. You knew me And I knew you. The value Of that relation Is not complicated; You have your life to lead And so I wasn’t good enough. I do not offer an explanation, But it is true. You never mean't to hurt me But the pain I feel inside I cannot confide. I knew I was right That night in the restaurant, On our first date. It thrills me live with me But you are too clever To fall for my pride.
I , I never lied to you But the brew is stirred. What can I do? I lost control again But I tried, Never lied. Too precious And lovely to my eyes. I can't despise A man That took you from my side. You may deride The responsibility I keep Hidden inside, But pride Set me apart. I can't start to tell The pain I went through, But I loved you. The price I pay Would destroy A lesser man. With the dances and drink Leaves nothing to think; I blink it out But I don’t shout about it.
I don’t know what I am doing Screwing girls I don’t know, But it shows Me in true light; Whore Monger at best. I choose confession Carefully, Coz' it’s not What you want to hear. I bare consequences Yet to unfold. I know I have been dissolute, A character trait Fate gave me. Was I mad, bad and dangerous to know? Possibly. Mixed up guy. The world will reveal its self To me.
My sex life is Not important To me. I had no pussy in years. Not homosexual. My palms too hairy to hide. Perhaps a bit asexual. This is my confession. So you know the truth about me. Childhood memories spring back. I could no harm after that. A harmless man Lost in a world He did not understand. The finger pointing Don’t go away; They say it would. What could I do? I needed some escape. So so sorry to involve you, Brush it from your head. I know I did, But what the fuck I hope he is dead.
The ships in the harbour All went away, Left me here; Took the cargo I hold precious, The cargo I hold dear And I grow reckless. Love a twin edged sword Of excitement and fear. The blade cuts deep and clear. Did you ever feel like this? A problem That one kiss Could solve Never resolved. Am I missing Something here? Please tell me if I am, It's not just a sham I won't believe. I think that I can Do this. I try And I try I try and try. I always miss.
I don’t fall in love the usual way, Gamboling through meadowed fields Hand in hand; I am not that kind of man. I freebase Right from the top, I don’t care about the drop. If it feels right I will jump. I don’t know where it ends, Or if I will survive, But I know that I am alive; And if I crash and tumble, Crumble to the ground I will get up Try again. See through the pain And I remain.