I was shouting in a canyon. Every step I took Echoed from the walls; But the calls of hell Shook me. You can't go there, Whatever the despair. I know you feel And steal from tomorrow. I live on borrowed time, But I will never decline The courtesy you bring, Perhaps sorrow.
So you scratch in the dust. This was never discussed. Don’t hurt me again; Then if you must Try to refrain, Then happiness reigns, But the pain I feel Still remains. A constant reminder Of what could have been.
I would do anything To get over you, But the ping in my head Calls me to attention. I don’t need to mention the past, You know it already. It's disrespectful That you traduce her And me by association. Who the fuck do you think you are? You cannot talk to me like that. You may make me cry But believe I will get over it.
Once upon an evening dreary, When my bones felt weak and weary I heard a knock on my front door. “Who is there?” I asked. No answer came. I peeped through the curtain. I was certain I saw a man I didn’t know. Who the fuck was this? I will not duck a question So I opened the door. No one there. I shut it again. He stood right behind me. “Do I know you?" I asked. “But I know all about you. If half of it true We can use you.” “For what purpose?” “You were trained, But the story's just begun You belong to us.” “No man claims hold of my life.” “We are not talking of a man. Push that aside." the naivety Of which only raises His attention, Not to mention His hatred of the good.
I don’t get off on this. My promise to you Full of platitudes. Not being rude In any way, shape or form, But a storm is coming; I can smell it. And I walk the streets Of Oxford Bored out of my mind. Not blind To possibility, Love gives you that, But catch 22. Can I tell the truth? I can't lie no more. If you have memories Stored Reflect on them. And if you respect them Just give me a clue And I can show you What I can do.
Never let it be said That romance is dead. For there’s so little else Going on in my head. I wake up each day, Try to wish it away And I bide my time. So I climb the walls instead. What you said hurts And the buttons are pressed. Please don’t do this to me. I know I failed But that ship has sailed Long ago. Undeserving wretch that I am I am still a man.
Do you remember when We loved each other? I won't bother with that again Lovers take from each other. But you left me falling apart. I will start again. Yes I will And I can. I have no hatred, But the sentiment Still remains. Maybe I have to pretend. I loved you like no other could. I don’t care what he says, He preys on the soul. You are better than that.
You hurt But I don’t cry No more. Tears ran dry Long time ago. But I worry For my heart. I want to explain; And I try And I try. Sort of constant refrain. Find it hard to let go; Perhaps I never will. We climbed the precipice Of love And I took the pain In a fall from grace. Currents of time Can't wash away How I feel today, As I remember Every thing.
Lessons learned That cannot be retrieved; My memory imperfect But the sessions I reject. I don’t look for war But the score won't Be relieved. And so I am turned. I am stronger Than you believe, Though spurned Like a beggar. Unlock my chain Again. No mercy No reprieve, I can fight And feel no pain.
I am brazen And outlandish. Oh yeah, Believe it. No reason, But the memory of taste; The dish I serve. It's complimentary, Oh yeah, But the season Holds no delicacy For me. So I swerve Away, Oh yeah. Don’t patronise me. Is see through it Every day. Yes I do.
Looking for a face that looks familiar, Or something similar. For a life that just escapes you, No, no. The lies told in you name traduce, It’s just abuse. Try to bring me down, But the crown of thorns set there. I bleed to my chair. That’s just the cross I bare. So I don’t care What they say anymore. You have gone away. Left me standing here. So people stare As the blood tears roll down my face. You call me a disgrace. But I am not. Have you forgot, What I did for you?
He walked home Tonight And debated in his head. Now alone, Never answered the phone. Locked himself in his room. But couldn’t sleep Looking for a tone. Something he could keep. Love is a mystery At least to me. And it has history. Can he make that leap?
I washed her with care; My touch gentle. All the time, admiring her body, As water dripped over her curves. Having finished the task (Which was my pleasure) I then left. On my return She had dried In the warmth of the sun. A blinding magnificence No man could spurn. So I reached for my helmet. And we went for a ride.
I thought of you on battle fields I fought on. No harm can come to you. The people I shield I can’t begin to tell. If anyone raise a hand to you. Promise I slay them too. My daughter and my woman, Two queens of my heart. And when I am gone They will start again. But the war goes on.
I was on my way to the doctors wearing only my underpants as I was expecting to be examined. I stepped into the lift, but stopped at the wrong floor. I asked someone where the clinic was but didn’t get an answer, so I left. Next thing I am on a bus, still in my pants, heading home. I sat next to a black man and the bus was pretty full. He said his friend had the cancer and went on to describe it as three wolves circling a man. The first wolf was the most terrifying as he brought the news that you had it and there was no escape. The second wolf would calm you down and would tell you to accept the situation you find yourself in. The third wolf could teach you to forget all your fears and they would blow away like leaves in autumn.
Did you ever feel like this, When you get pissed off At every word they say? So you pray They would just go away, Leave you alone; But the phone It rings incessantly, So you answer But the words Choke in your throat. You can deliver But remember Who you really are.
So I bust a gut Trying to rhyme. Just give me some time I will think of something That will blow your mind. Sooner or later The world will catch up with you, The mayhem I left behind. Washed my hands; I was clean again. Not really, Not really. I owe you this much My only child. But the love I feel Could burst through my chest, And I must confess A tear rolls down When I think of you.
I want to take you home, Keep you safe From the nonsense out there. I can’t bare The thought you are unhappy. Slap my face If I am impertinent; I live in my head. No shed, with porno mags. Yet I remain reticent. What must I do To prove my love For you? Maybe I am deranged And certainly Estranged from most; But you wove A spell I can't break. Take this as you will, I can't lie no more. Especially to me. Just want you to know.
If you don’t like it Then just fuck off. My house, My rules. Sure I’ll miss you, But not enough To want you to stay. It’s in my blood. Can’t get it away now, I am not deranged, Estranged from many people That I know. Some fucker looking for an antidote. I was too fiery, I saw fiery Too fiery for you.
Am I the body of Christ? The resurrection, The way, the truth And the life. He that believes in me Will never die. Horse shit. Gave that up Long time ago, But still go back to it Like an addict. I once wanted to be a priest I know, sounds crazy; But the laziness of thought. Besides there was no money in it. A man cannot serve god and mammon Both; So I chose. Whether it was right or wrong I really don’t know. So the book lies closed. Messianic qualities live within me And it shows. I can't save this tortured world, Wish I could. I only have my love to give Can you forgive?
So don’t explain it, I can’t try. But I love the way you hurt, And I love the way you lie. A confused mind, One of a kind. The mold is broken. Saying a token To over reach. Yet I preach to the converted. Now I am dry The words wont come To me. I fantasize, but not reality. My patience thin And that is boring To me. Yes it is I just need a kiss. Would you can you Give me this last absolution?